yeah. kinda went fucking insane over it. don't know if it's better or worse now. can't kill him, but i guess no one else can either. just another shitty impasse this place forces on me.
["If my dad showed up, I'd rather die instead" is what first comes to her mind, but she curbs it. Not because she's unwilling to share, but because she doesn't want to overshadow the conversation with her own family's bullshit more than she already has.
And despite the way she'd go to the grave insisting her father was a good man, she knows better than to assume everyone has it the same. There will be no, "but you're family," coming from her. Not after what she's been through with her legal guardian. Not after what she saw Zouken did to Sakura.]
he's the reason i'm like this. he's the reason for everything. reap what you sow. the world should be rid of a false hero like him, and a reject experiment like me.
[She remembers playing cards with another person last month. A man who revealed it was his dream to become a "hero". It was laughable to her. Doubly so since the young man who fell in love with her sister, Emiya, wanted to be considered one. Icing on that cake only happened to be the form of that man actually receiving a Rank and Suit years after failing to accomplish that goal — Emiya's body irreversibly changed from his attempt to chase that dream, and refusing to be called by anything but "Archer," now.
How funny, in a dark way, that such things should line up the way that they did. Now more than ever the concept of "hero" seems foolish to her.]
[IT TOOK ALL SHE HAD NOT TO FUCK IT UP AND HE'S CALLING HER CUPCAKE?!]
Even when you'd antagonize me you were still closer to being a friend than some of the other idiots this place is filled with.
[Rin knows she's prone to hissy fits and rude remarks and hurtful behavior. When someone yanks her chain, even in public, her emotions are a flash in the pan and typically don't become grudge-worthy without some other factor. It's only when she bites back and the other party decides to stew rather than throw another volley that she starts questioning things.
For now, at least barring that their wires get crossed again, she can be content with the f-word. In fact she's more confident with it because of how rocky things were previously.]
Of course not. You both coddle each other, don't you? He probably thinks you're more like that princess who kissed a frog, and considers himself the muddy amphibian you took a chance on.
I guess in guy terms he probably thinks you are very cool. Badass, even.
Fine. I won't press, but I do know that sometimes he needs help pulling his own head out of his ass. If you think the birthday-boy-to-be requires that kind of assistance let me know.
[Really? She always considered both Fuuta and Dabi to have more friends than she did, but perhaps that's her own fault for making baseless assumptions. "Any person able to acknowledge a relationship like that should be more popular," isn't a very scientific metric.]
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don't know if it's better or worse now.
can't kill him, but i guess no one else can either.
just another shitty impasse this place forces on me.
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And despite the way she'd go to the grave insisting her father was a good man, she knows better than to assume everyone has it the same. There will be no, "but you're family," coming from her. Not after what she's been through with her legal guardian. Not after what she saw Zouken did to Sakura.]
May I ask why you want to kill him?
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he's the reason i'm like this. he's the reason for everything. reap what you sow.
the world should be rid of a false hero like him, and a reject experiment like me.
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How funny, in a dark way, that such things should line up the way that they did. Now more than ever the concept of "hero" seems foolish to her.]
Say no more. I think your dad should be dead too.
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not even being sarcastic, look at me go.
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We're friends, aren't we? Supporting you against a shitty authority figure is the baseline.
No sarcasm here, either.
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Even when you'd antagonize me you were still closer to being a friend than some of the other idiots this place is filled with.
[Rin knows she's prone to hissy fits and rude remarks and hurtful behavior. When someone yanks her chain, even in public, her emotions are a flash in the pan and typically don't become grudge-worthy without some other factor. It's only when she bites back and the other party decides to stew rather than throw another volley that she starts questioning things.
For now, at least barring that their wires get crossed again, she can be content with the f-word. In fact she's more confident with it because of how rocky things were previously.]
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I guess in guy terms he probably thinks you are very cool. Badass, even.
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but thanks. that feels a little better, at least. i'd be a great princess.
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and thanks. don't really know who else to...you know. talk to about this shit.
anyway, i'll wait for the guest list or whatever.
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Right. Talk to you then.